you look beautiful now

i don't trust myself with making my own decisions most the time.
i wait for the opinion of others.
if they agree or support me,
its golden. i feel good.

If they don't,
well then i can convince myself i need to do what i want.

its a silly thing really,
taking the long road in a sense.

i want to be more comfortable with me.
we'll get there, i know.

why don't i see my best friend more?
have you seen her?
She is beautiful.

Tanner hates me and thinks all i want him for is music and frozen yogurt but its not true!!!!
he will see the light soon.
he is my own blood. DUDE.

"I'm such a terrible scatter brained blogger!!!"
give or take a few exclamations, this is the most recent text i sent.
and its true!!!

close friends,
I'm glad I already know you love me. :p

I'm going to go watch a good movie with Bethany and veg out.
kiiinda my calling in life, a little bit.

really.
i frustrate myself with my lack of focus right now.

what is this!?!
I'm either miss deep thinker 2008
or i can't keep a steady stream of thought for more then 7 seconds!!!



you mean the world to me.
are we okay?
maybe we could talk about it...