all the love i have to give gets caught between every rib

sometimes i feel emotion on my face and in my stomach, and i don't know why it's there.
I'm in some awkward medium state where my body knows how it should feel, but my mind can't keep up.
I can't verbally relay how i feel, because i don't know!

I just don't know what to tell myself.
I can't sort out the loneliness from love sometimes.

I don't know what to tell you.
I don't know what I feel.

and it's the honest truth.


I'm tired and frustrated and selfish.
I need you to be okay so that you can help me because i feel lost in this.
completely.

I don't know where this disconnect is.


this emotion is coming out.
almost daily.
and i don't understand it at all.

Let mercy fall on me.

No, i am not near perfect.
But with the right setting and music,
i can feel infinite like no one you know.

worship i missed you.
a little piece of heaven on earth.

The moon is my vice. Have you seen it tonight?
Its a glorious thing, really it is!
Just for a moment... ponder the moon...
:]


Fritz is laying down half asleep aimlessly growling.
God love that puppy.

My Cathedral

Did you know cathedrals took hundreds of years to make, and those who designed them never saw the fruits of their labor? They love the lord that much. They knew what they were doing was the ultimate worship, and they loved SO intensely, that it was okay to never see the big picture. To never see their dreams take shape. A huge timely and costly task, offering no pay back or beauty to behold within the designers life time. But pure of heart, they knew the world would benefit. I bet they even dreamed of people gazing upon these brilliant creations centuries later, inspired by the perfectly designed architecture. The thought of others marveling in delight at the wonderful beauty, and finding peace through the sight. finding faith through perfect sight. And it was enough. Dreams, and faith were all they needed... and they could accomplish anything. Anything.

My music is my cathedral.
I hope to inspire and prove
that dreams and faith are all you need to accomplish anything.
Anything.